“Finding Love” was published in November of 2015 and “Testing Love” in August of 2016. I had continued writing after our breakup in
November of 2014 accumulating enough poems and stories to continue the series with Book 5 “Holding On” and Book 6 “Moving On”. I realized, however, that the story of the end would have been just that and I decided that since I had emotionally moved past it, there was no need to embellish it. Instead, I am moving forward with this next book, “Learning to Live Again”.
In order to bridge the gap, however, and bring my journey up to date, I do want to discuss that over 2 year period where I found myself dealing with the incalculable pain of losing the love that I, at that time, had fully expected would take me to the end of my life, and the steps back I needed to take to realize that it was time to live again.
Like the sky’s colors
At day’s end
So too must we face
Each day’s new wonder
Be it a challenge
A surprise
Or a burden to bear
We must rise to its calling
Delay is not an option
As plans must be in place
To clear the path
Towards the future we own
Feeling lost
Sad and uncertain
But unwilling to give in
To the appeal of nothingness
RANT 2014
Not sure
Anymore
Very scared
I’m not prepared
Transitioning
And re-positioning
Scattered
And battered
Disappointed
And disjointed
Needing to write
To stop the flight
Seeking direction
Without deflection
Lost some fire
But not desire
Sunday night
Lying on my bed
Alone in the cold
Of a Florida winter
Now relaxing
With mindless drivel
As sleep overcomes me
With a smile on my face
Not thinking
Of my week ahead
Until the morning
When my mind is clear
But tonight is all
That can possibly exist
And I’m at peace
With the comfort of now
